you know, sometimes reality sucks
yes i like to dwell in the past
i hate the fact that people are constantly changing
the pace is so fast
the changes are so drastic
i cant even catch up the pace
those who are once close to you
can completely forget you
and what hurts the most
is that you are only needed when people need you
i feel that im just a tool
you know, i really would like to think this way, how convenient.
but in reality, its either you deal with it or go 14th floor
i hate to admit this but i think im self-pitying.
i pitied myself because i think people mistreat me
i pitied myself because i feel that they are missing the good parts in me
i pitied myself because i feel that i give in a lot and sacrifice a lot, always put others in my shoes and believe that none done the same
blaming everyone to my own misery, i think that is what i do best
i soon realize my flaw through the boyfriend
we rarely get into fights, but i was pretty upset that he would rather stay at home (because he's really tired) but not meeting me
i thought i am always the one giving in, always tagging along to his needs
but i didn't know that he too, was trying his best to tolerate my behavior, enduring the silent tantrums i threw at him
and when i gain some conscious (lol), i realized that he actually loves me a lot.
so in the end, im blurred by the thought of being sacrificial. hence the trait of self-pitying.
so who's the fool now (:
i was pretty upset awhile ago because i feel the people around me were no longer who they are.
but yet, it doesn't mean they don't care.
its just that, things...change.
people change due to situations, environments and new commitments
in fact, they don't mean to hurt you at all, and heck, they don't even notice the changes
and who knows that in reality, he or she feels that i'm the one changing
i can't be to sure of it.
so, i came to a conclusion that it is just a process of life, a changing process
and hey, it is not necessarily bad :)
in every cycle of life, people changes, situation changes but the bond is still there, it is always there. just that it is not as significant as before due to the new elements in life.
its the memories that bind us together, yes? :)
a family member of mine told me that the most important thing is to be yourself and be happy
because when you are happy, the world eventually smiles with you.
there are so much things to learn, so many doors to explore
i hope i can learn it bit by bit
and be happier :)
yes i like to dwell in the past
i hate the fact that people are constantly changing
the pace is so fast
the changes are so drastic
i cant even catch up the pace
those who are once close to you
can completely forget you
and what hurts the most
is that you are only needed when people need you
i feel that im just a tool
you know, i really would like to think this way, how convenient.
but in reality, its either you deal with it or go 14th floor
i hate to admit this but i think im self-pitying.
i pitied myself because i think people mistreat me
i pitied myself because i feel that they are missing the good parts in me
i pitied myself because i feel that i give in a lot and sacrifice a lot, always put others in my shoes and believe that none done the same
blaming everyone to my own misery, i think that is what i do best
i soon realize my flaw through the boyfriend
we rarely get into fights, but i was pretty upset that he would rather stay at home (because he's really tired) but not meeting me
i thought i am always the one giving in, always tagging along to his needs
but i didn't know that he too, was trying his best to tolerate my behavior, enduring the silent tantrums i threw at him
and when i gain some conscious (lol), i realized that he actually loves me a lot.
so in the end, im blurred by the thought of being sacrificial. hence the trait of self-pitying.
so who's the fool now (:
i was pretty upset awhile ago because i feel the people around me were no longer who they are.
but yet, it doesn't mean they don't care.
its just that, things...change.
people change due to situations, environments and new commitments
in fact, they don't mean to hurt you at all, and heck, they don't even notice the changes
and who knows that in reality, he or she feels that i'm the one changing
i can't be to sure of it.
so, i came to a conclusion that it is just a process of life, a changing process
and hey, it is not necessarily bad :)
in every cycle of life, people changes, situation changes but the bond is still there, it is always there. just that it is not as significant as before due to the new elements in life.
its the memories that bind us together, yes? :)
a family member of mine told me that the most important thing is to be yourself and be happy
because when you are happy, the world eventually smiles with you.
there are so much things to learn, so many doors to explore
i hope i can learn it bit by bit
and be happier :)
